Pearlynn Yang
31May1990

my thoughts:
im really scared.
im really scared of the trip.
im really scared of the unexpected.
im really scared of what would happen there.
im really scared of leaving mommy home alone for two weeks minus weekends where kor would be home.
im really scared that if i really do not get any reception for my phone there, i cant call home to check on her.
im scared that i might suffer from an infection from the blister which i smartly went to cut the skin out. and it's sick and it's so sore.

i should have gotten my own travel insurance, damn.
i should really learn how to deal and expect the unexpected better.
i cannot really imagine that if im really going overseas to get my degree, how would i survive?

oh well. let's leave it to fate to decide how the trip should be.
with the earthquake that striked china yesterday and all.
161km away from where i would be going.
i cant say that it's very near there but it isn't too far either.
ah. my tummy's churning.lolsss

oh, insecurities?
oh, home sick.
oh, loved ones.
oh, GOSH!

im going to re-pack my bag now.


ELYSIA CHAN:
ALL THE BEST FOR EXAMS.I LOVE YOU.
CHEN ZHIHAO:
ALL THE BEST FOR PRELIMS.


people:
wish me Bon Voyage.
TCHAO!
Je t'aime.


anyway, someone asked me if im an independent girl.
the question kind of caught me off guard.
i thought about it, and i replied:
i think i am when i need to be. but most of the time, i'm not.
right, so now.
for the next two weeks, all i have to do is to appear strong.
stronger than usual!
With Love,
Pearlynn

im home from today's activities!!
im dead tired now. but i guess i would be alive and kicking right after my bath.

okay so i spent today's 11s at raffles city.
meaning, 11am and 11pm both at there.
11am was to meet shijia and clan for a 'chitchat' before heading to tampines for ChiaMarcus' 21st bday party.
1pm to about 430pm there?
stuff ourselves with food. laksa, sotong balls etc.. lol.
he's so narcissistic. haha
aww, anyway he's damn gay and sweet with his pet rabbit.
lols

met nicholas at the central at 1745. was late!
i was supposed to be treating him to food today.
but instead, we had like a lot of drinks today.
cos we didnt feel hungry,
we skipped the trip to 'ma maison'
and went to tcc for a drink instead.
he had some coffee drink while i had my soda:D
still not being hungry, and we didnt want to eat,
we headed towards raffles area.
thinking that maybe a walk would make us feel well, not so filled.
as we reached funan, he asked if i would like to have cocktail and pizza for dinner.
haven't tried that for dinner before, being an adventurous girl, i said okay!
still clueless of where he wanted to bring me.
then as we were in front of raffles city,
he asked if a lady asked me if i'm 21, what would i reply.
then, i realised we were going up swissotel stamford.
anyway, it was quite an unplanned moment but he just walked into the area and we just went up.
unchecked.
:D:D
we got to level70! City Space.
we got a random seat for 2 in the beginning but requested for a window seat, and we actually got it!:D
breathtaking view.
oh and kuku pearlynn now knows where the istana is.
as in. she never knew that there was a long road before you can reach the istana.
lols.kuku
so we had our drinks and our peanuts until 10pm.
after that, we headed down to cafe cartel to fill our 'empty' stomach with some food and headed home.
comments for cafe cartel raffles city: BAD service.
nice but boring but fun and entertaining day.
i dont know what im talking!
shit.

anyway, a quake just happened 161km away from kunming.
i dont feel like going anymore. i miss home......


i need a hug seriously:(

goodnight!
With Love,
Pearlynn

there's only tomorrow left to glam up the last of my holidays.
leaving sg on sunday to CHEENA!
&nasri to GERMANY.
godbless us for these 2 weeks away from singapore, away from our family and our friends.

okay so i'm supposed to wake up at 8am later:D
4 more hours to rest before i would be up getting ready for the long long day.
11am: to meet shijia, meilin, cel at cityhallmrt.
1pm: marcus' 21st birthday party
5pm: to meet nicholastay to treat him before i fly before he enters NS
12midnight or so: to reach home & wash up before i go to bed.
12nn: to wake up and do my rubbish
5pm: to get everything ready for the trip once again.
7pm: to leave home!

i really hope the trip would let me say 'c'est magnifique!' when i come back.
ahh.
im homesick.

one happy thing that happened today:
i scored an 'A' for french. like finally after 3 semesters. woohoo!

oh and i realised how long and wordy all my posts are.
when i come back, hopefully, i would have pictures to post up:D

i love you people, if i would never get to say it.
With Love,
Pearlynn

okay..
YAY!!
Pearlynn is still up at 3am,
and during this ungodly hour,
she's baking cupcakes!!!
how screwed is her body clock like she does not already know it.


the mood swings are getting worse and it is really hitting me hard.
she have got some issues going on that she does not know about.
With Love,
Pearlynn

wah shit.

i feel so tiny, so minute.
and yet so gigantic at the same time.

after reading peiyun jiejie(my cousin)'s blog after so long,
i found this.
Daren "Bu Xu Li You" MV Version 2
she's in the yellow dress.

which then,
allowed me to chance upon her cousin's blog (rainie's) whom i also know.
who had links to other well, future big stars' blogs.
okayy so thiz cousin and distant cousin of mine are trying to make their name big.
wow.


mental note:
to stop stuffing and start starving myself.
freak out!
With Love,
Pearlynn

it has been a year since our second attachment at ttsh rehab centre which was located at some ulu amkh.
oh well.
anyway, janice and i went out well yesterday.
&catching up with her was great!
places we went include school, queensway, suntec, ps and wisma and prisca's block:D
and i got home about 2220hrs
then at 0145, on msn, we decided to meet up to go for a run!
while i was watching my KYLE XY.
like WTH!?
but heck, we met up at 0230 at my bus stop
she stays 2 bus stops away, and she sprinted from her place to mine.
how zai is that man.lols.

my loots for the day:
a bottle of sunscreen lotion, PINK FBT SHORTS

lols.
the pink shorts were damn random,
we just wanted to be bimbotic together and wear that on the plane back to singapore on the 14th.
as if an UGLY light blue hs polo dryfit tee isnt enough to catch some attention.
lols
oh well.
i cant wait for the trip to come as much as i want it to end as much as how i want attachment to start and how fast it would finish.
ahhh.

okay i've been emo-ing quite a bit lately.
one reason being:
-unable to attend NikeHumanRace on the 31/9 cos i have to be at T3 at 10pm and the instructor would only let us off at 10.


im not going to sleep until 9pm tonight!
wish me luck.


i want a DS Lite!
yawns.
With Love,
Pearlynn

okay so now an update about my life for the past two days.
Friday:
went to school for YEP meeting.
gan, gerald, jolene, celestine and i went out to holland v for lunch.
then we headed to little india to meet meilin.
walked mustafa and had tons of fun joy and laughter.
my loot: 2 sets of 3 bars of Lindt chocolate for $16.80:D fav!
i called mom and told her that i would be out late to buy stuff for yep.
she was cool despite the 8pm timing she wants me to be home by.lolssss
after mustafa, gerald went off and we headed to some foodcentre and we had a FEAST of fried oysters, charsiew and roastmeat rice, dessert plus a cup of sugarcane each.
filled, we went to marina bay to watch the fireworks.(sry zhihao!!!)
as gan, jolene, meilin and i refused to take those congested public transport home right after the pyrotechnic exhibition,
we went to the macs beside bras basah and continued our 3rd feast of the day.
decided to meet at school gym at 9am the next morning after our feast-ful day.
lols.got home at 0020hr.

Saturday:
woke up at 8am.
as it was raining and mom was around the area,
she offered me a ride to school.
i realised at 9am when i got to school (the rest werent there yet),
that i went to school for a run without my running shoes.:D
how smart.
she sent me home and back to school again.
and they still were not there when i returned at 0920!
haha
jolene arrived at 0945, gan arrived next and then meilin!!!
cel bailed us as her mother wants her to be home.lols
in the gym:
ran 4km (watched olympics on the treadmill),
cycled 10km(5 on leisure, raced gan and jol/meilin for the other 5)lols.
did other random stuff of the random robots which were supposed to help us tone up.
then, gan, jolene and i went to do weights!
i did the 1kg, 2kg and 4kg dumbbells.
then being super adventurous, i went to the weight bar section.
took 10kg and did a set of 10.
& took the 15kg to do a 'set' of 3.LOLS
oh well. after spending about 1.5hrs at the gym, we decided that it was enough.
washed up and went for lunch.
we had queensway,hollandv,sixthave, adamroad and many other ideas in our minds for lunch but settled on adam road fc.
devoured on the variety of food and finally settled for kwayteowmeesoup:D
had black glutinous rice for DESSERT and chicken feet for er dessert after desserts.
lols.
thn we stayed there playing tetris as the rain continued to pour.
i BROKE meilin's record of 97lines, gan's 86 and jolene's 81/82.
LOLS
celestine joined us during our game of tetris.lols
as the rain lightened, we decided to head to ikea,
bought our towels.
cel and i headed home about 1700
got home at 1820.
i refused to say what happened at home cos it's so uneventful.
i slept at 2100?

TODAY:
woke up at 0900 chionged to the toilet.
lols..
glued my eyes on the tv and my butt on the chair for 2HOURS!!
to watch what?
a 50km marathon-.-
i was that bored.
haha
okay and im going out now to buy ingredients for my shepherd's pie that im going to do.
i hope it would turn out yummyyum.


i did not really favour you in the beginning.
we had our breaks together in the coterie,
went out together.
you just appeared to be a rich, mean and ignorant of people's feelings.
i was not close to you until we passed that institution level.
then i got closer to you as our circle got split up and we were the only two whom entered the group of the higher caliber together.
i got to know you more,
as a nice person.
not a nicer person, but a nice and real person.
then we graduated.
to different institutions.
despite the difference in curriculum time, we remained close.
until you got the job that you have currently.
i feel that you've changed.
or maybe it's just me.
it just fell that you have becomed more plastic.
everything is about brands and everything you see on covers of magazines.
just that you have not reached the Class-A bitch level.
which is good.
but maybe, if you want to be total charlatan,
have that grace that suits your current personality.
i mean, you do not just exhibit an artless presence with that coverage that you are currently having.
in order to be a Class-A, and yes i mean a TOPgrade (if that's what you're aiming for), you have to put on a better camouflage.
it's a game of total (not partial) masquerade you have to play to survive that industry.
because the combination of your current image and behaviour, it's quite irksome.

With Love,
Pearlynn

i do not live life to be ridiculed.
no, your words are not going to bring me down.

anyway, exams are over.
screwed the papers for this sem.
can pass but oh so not well.
sem 2.1 would not be like this.
i need to focus.
just let me continue to live life in solitude now.
byebye.
With Love,
Pearlynn

People try to tell us who we are meant to be,
but it is up to us to decide whether the label fits.
With Love,
Pearlynn

i had an appointment this morning at 0830.
i missed it.
my late nights are killing me, screwing up my life.

so i went to CGH to visit the big mr CHEN ZHIHAO.
he broke his arm!!
all so because he gehhkiang, think that he can jump so high huh?
haha.
but, i rather he break his arm than his spine.
good job eh.lols
saw his big fat bruised and swollen arm.
woots. looks super painful.
anyway, i slept on the train to and from cgh back to bt batok.
mr chen should be honoured!



i need to achieve the state of nirvana.
then, i might be able to work things out.
so, get out of my mind,
get out of my mind,
get out of my mind special someone whom i have not seen in years.
your presence in my mind with the endless workload is agitating my lacrimal glands,
i know my lacrimal sacs are majorly overworked and about to burst.
okay. goodnight.
With Love,
Pearlynn

and did i mention,
i passed my BCLS
= pearlynn can perform CPR
= PEARLYNN WOULD BE HELPING OUT IN F1 (26,27,28th Sept)!

and for raceEXPO(31stAug), i would earn $30.

1st-14thSept
YEP Kunming

15th-26th Sept
NUH Paeds Ward 88

29thSept-10th Oct
IMH

13th Oct
Start of Second semester. BOO!
With Love,
Pearlynn

NDP 2008 HeartWare Network-BayAmbassadors' Leadersleaders of BLUE sector:D
NE2 BlueSector on ground
YIPWEISHAN:D
my twist twist post
Blue1. RYE-zzuan and PEAR-lynn!
loveydoveysweetiepie SEE-REE-NEE and i
the heart! with arrow by the BLACK KNIGHTS during air show.
the heart that the black knights would be forming during NDP would be without the arrow.


get sick of us:D

With Love,
Pearlynn

in order to lose weight, Pearlynn should:
- adhere to her at most once per week cup of bubble tea;
- cut down on Dewberry intake;
- stop eating rubbish late at night;
- refrain from finishing the whole plate of food even though she's filled;
- exercise, exercise and exercise.

last saturday was preview for ndp and preview was overall fun,
if onlt it was without the public.
how grossly bad some sgreans can actually behave, it shocked me.
oo.and i have tan lines now
ugly& uneven ones.haha.
V-neck tan line + those sleeves mark!
anyway, it was the first first time that i actually view the whole performance done by the BLACK KNIGHTS!
loved it. the way they drew the heart, woots!
so drama!
i can so totally imagine some guy proposing to his girlfriend.
ogayogay.
she's getting desperate.
haha
the more i look at yanjingtang, the more i think he's like a little boy.
but he's cute!:D

oh and did i mention i saw zhiwei from 4/1 at the preview.
how awkward that i actually had to ask his family to move in to flll up all the gaps,
but that's part of my job isn't it.
that shows that im a partial person!:D

pearlynn should do a mass posting of pictures soon.
With Love,
Pearlynn